Someone once told me I put off this image that I'm this "strong", "indepedendent", "I can do it on my own" kind of image. While one would say this isn't necessarily a bad thing, I'm beginning to think it's not a good thing either.
I'm starting to get to the point that although there once was a point in my life where I might have been those things, I'm tired of being strong or people telling me "you're a strong person" because although it is a "good" thing to be strong, I also feel like it ignores the fact that sometimes....I'm weak! I'm weak. So what if I am?? What if sometimes I don't want to be strong? What if sometimes I just want to cry by myself and not "be strong" for once or twice or whenever I don't feel like I want to be strong or that I have to be strong just because I've been strong before.
I feel like now when someone tells me "you're a strong girl, you can do it", it ignores the fact that...there ARE just some things that I can't do. Sure, its just what you say when someone is down, but what about looking at the reality? That hey, someone is down, why don't YOU be strong for them instead of telling them they're strong and then leave them alone. I know people might say it sometimes because they have all this "confidence" in you or something but...I dunno, sometimes, just sometimes people are weak and I say it's okay to be weak sometimes. We all can't always be strong, ALL THE TIME.
It's been a while since I've blogged. Mostly because a lot of things have happened in my life that I don't feel like making public. I wonder if anyone reads these anymore or if anyone ever blogs. I feel bad when someone tells me they read my blog and I can't say the same about theirs. If you read my blog, thank you. I don't know why you do or why my life is that "interesting" (if that) to you or anyone really. I don't read people's blogs because I just don't. It's nothing against specific people,
It's annoying when people text you or IM you out of nowhere ans ask for something / a favor and you haven't talked to them in a long time. It's like they neglect to acknowledge you've been missing for a while and don't even bother to ask how or where you've been before even daring to ask for a favor.
It's also annoying when a certain someone asks others about you and then doesn't even have the guts to ask you yourself where and how you've been. I dunno...
I wouldn't call this a cry of attention but I just don't see a point in asking all these other people, when you really could just ask me yourself. Because really, the best answer you could get is from the person of whom you're inquiring about right?? And then its just inconsiderate or rude (in my opinion) if you haen't talked to someone in a while, don't even bother asking for a favor before you can ask how they are. Common courtesy? Guess its not that common...
Are blogs made to complain? I feel like that's all I do on here. "Expressing my feelings" is I guess a fancier way of just complaining. (sigh)
I'm just frustrated right now and this isn't even the half of it.
Friday, 18 September 2009
I don't get why you're mad at me. I didn't do anything to you.
Monday, 07 September 2009
I wish I could play the piano and write music so that when I'm going through a tough time I can expres it through music...
...cause sometimes words in a blog are just not enough.
Sunday, 06 September 2009
Do things always have to get worse before it gets better?
